It will never happen (at least, not now). :'(

So, the girl that I really like and have blogged about several times talking about how I am gonna ask her out and all... it's not gonna happen. I asked her out on Christmas morning, and she said no. The first thing she did say, however, was "I really really wanna say yes." Her two reasons for saying no were because she's going off to the army next year, and her past relationships haven't gone so well, especially her most recent one that I think ended towards the end of this past summer. It sort of pisses me off, too, thinking that if her last relationship hadn't gone so badly, I feel like she may have said yes. But because she is going to the army, I feel like that would've over-ruled the other reason. I see why she said no because of that, as we wouldn't see each other at all really during the school year, but I honestly wouldn't care if it wouldn't work out for us after that, and just during the school year would be plenty for me. I've never had a girlfriend before, and after meeting this girl, I just want that sense of feeling cared about almost more than my own family by another girl.

This girl, every time I see her, or every time I know I'm about to see her, like when I'm driving to school or to her house to hang out, I get really excited and can't wait to say hi and chat. Today was my dad's side's Christmas party, and we do this thing called "White Elephant" where everyone 16+ brings in some kind of either funny, nice or somewhat-shitty gift in to be opened by someone else, and the gifts can also be stolen by other participants up to 3 times. I played in it, and I ended up getting Trouble with the Curve and a box of popcorn. I couldn't  have been happier, as I was dead sure that my friend, this girl, that I really really like, would no doubt ask me to come to her house so she and her family could watch it with me. I was waiting for that text asking me, and about 3/4 of the way through the Packer game, she texted me asking if I would like to come over after the game and watch the movie with them. I obviously said sure, but I knew no "cuddling" or sitting close to each other was gonna happen.

I asked her out, she said no, and now I think she's just trying to keep her distance from me slightly so she doesn't get me thinking maybe she changed her mind. Before I had asked her, any time I went to her house, she would end up sitting real close next to me, and it was great, but now, like tonight, we both ended up sitting on opposite ends of the couch. I think, however, that she was just so tired from the long ride home from Minnesota that she just wanted to rest, which I understood. I just texted her then, haha.

Anyway, I should probably get to bed, as it's almost 1:10 AM, and I haven't gotten to bed earlier than midnight this whole break, and I don't think I'll be doing that until Tuesday night, which is a school night. :( Meh... I'm kinda sad that break is almost over already. Oh well. :\

Christmas break!

I got an early start to my Christmas break this year. You're probably thinking "Wow! That's awesome!". To be honest, it wasn't all that awesome. I was okay with having Thursday off, but I wanted school to be in session on Friday, as I had several tests to take care of on Friday, and since we had off of school due to a huge snow storm Thursday and Friday, those tests now have to wait until after break... which won't be easy to do. For one, I'm not gonna study for those tests all over break, and it's gonna be hard as hell to do anything about them before break is over. Not only does it suck that school was cancelled and I have to wait on those tests now, but I have been EXTREMELY BORED this entire time. I studied for one of my tests that wasn't so bad, so I'm already finished with most of my homework, and the only other order of business for me is finishing up my AP Lang. "This I Believe" paper, which I don't want to do right now. So, as you can assume, I'm so bored every day. I have nothing to do. Absolutely nothing. I get up, eat breakfast, shower, go on my iPad, play some games, watch TV, and sit there. Almost all day long. I HATE IT. I wish I could hang out with some friends, but none of that can really happen until after break is over.

Due to my extreme boredom, I'm nearly ODing on my technology use. Because of the two snow days and break, I've gone on my iPad and laptop more than usual, and done nothing more than usual. I feel so lazy and so unaccomplished lately. Yeah, there's my bed to make and the house to clean, but that's really boring and is just not fun at all (like cleaning your room should be fun to begin with). I have had no life these past 3 days. And this post is here for me to rant on and on about it to the world.

So, as you know, the world was supposed to "end" last Friday, December 21st, but it clearly didn't, and I knew it wouldn't. Many people on the Internet were freaking out about it, asking if it was real or not and what was going to happen and what they should do about it, and I said on literally every one of the posts "The world isn't ending any time soon. If it was gonna end on tomorrow (this time being Thursday) from being hit by a meteor or other planet or something, you would've seen a huge ball in the sky for the past month or so. News agencies would've been freaking out about it, and NASA would've been tracking it's ass for months." Yeah, the world ain't ending any time soon folks. Trust me, I'm a person. That made no sense, but whatever. It's not the end of the world, haha.

I'd make another paragraph here, but I'm really tired, and I just wanna get to bed somewhat early tonight. I went to bed at almost 1 AM last night, and nearly 3 AM on Friday night, as I was at a friend's house, and I ended up being there till about 2:30 watching Magic Mike, and I regret doing that. It was the worst movie I've ever seen. I don't care to watch 5 men stripping and dancing in extremely sexual ways. It's disturbing and really really awkward. Look at that, I typed a paragraph. Good. 'Night!

I can't do well in Honors Geometry for the life of me.

I had a C+ going for me in Honors Geometry for all of first quarter and some of second quarter, but now, I can't seem to get passed an F. Yes, I have an F in a class. I wish I didn't, but I do. It's honestly because of the proofs we did. I wish proofs didn't exist - I can't do them for shit. I was getting straight B's on all of my tests until the damn proofs set in, then they started going down to D's, and then F's... GAH! Thankfully, you need at least two F's to be assigned at Mid Terms, and I only had one, so I wasn't assigned, but I'm really worried about the end of first semester. I need to get my grade up to at least a D+, even a C-. I couldn't get passed  a D in Honors Algebra II unfortunately, so I really am just losing my mathematical abilities every day... it sucks big balls.

I will really hit rock bottom if I end up failing the semester of geometry, because that means I'll be re-taking first semester of the class next year, senior year, and I for sure don't want that. I'll feel like a loser if that happens to me. I haven't even told my parents about it... if they find out about the fact that I've failed the last 4 tests and that I'm failing a class, they will flip shit and probably ban me from all technological use.

I can't think of much more to add here, so I'll stop now. I'm mad. >:(

I swear, if this plan doesn't work...

Alright, so I have made countless attempts at asking the girl of my dreams out, and each attempt so far has failed me. 80% of them consisted of a movie date, all of which she was either gonna go with me, and then something came up, or she was already doing something else with school or her family. My other plans were to ask her out after school and after I was done with my job, but the only time I tried doing that, which was yesterday, I saw her walking out of the school with some friends, so I knew that plan was shot down. My very next attempt, and hopefully my for-once successful attempt, at asking her will be this coming Monday at school. Yeah, it ain't my ideal way or place to ask her, but I'm beginning to lose my patience with finding the time and place to ask her. This plan I feel kind of forces me to actually do it, but there is unfortunately one small thing that may get in the way of the plan working. I'll explain in the next few paragraphs.

So, my plan consists of this: getting to school like any normal day, putting my things in my locker and heading to the band room. I'll sit with my friends and just chill, and this is where the next part has to come into play for the plan to work the way I want it to. The girl I wanna ask out obviously needs to come into the room also and get all situated with her things, and then I'm gonna head to the bathroom, then go to the lab room that is right next to the band room. If she for whatever doesn't show up before first hour starts, I'll be pretty pissed. I also am really hoping that the other kid that's gonna tell her to come over by me will be there, which he should be. Anyway, I need to do walk away in a way that doesn't make it look like I'm leaving just as she's getting there, like I don't wanna talk to her. I'll probably wait a bit, then do it. So, when I head to the lab, I'm gonna have my other friend who I want in my plan to come out of the lab and go tell her that I want to ask her something, and she has to come over by me. Hopefully, no one will be in the room at the time of this happening. If there is, I may ask them to leave for a short time.

Anyway, she'll walk in, and then. That is when my dreams will hopefully come true. I'm gonna say something like "So, you know that time when so-and-so was at your house and you said you didn't know of anyone that I liked to back-up that I wasn't gay, (which I'm not)?" *she responds* "And then, did you get the text where I said there is a girl I really really really like more than any other girl I've ever known?" *she responds* "Well, believe it or not, you are the girl I really really really like more than any other girl. You are the girl I wanna go out with." *whatever she responds, I hope and pray every day to God her response is yes*

So... yeah, that's how I wanna ask her out. I'll probably add in "So, do you wanna go out with me?" Phoooh, I really hope this plan works. I pray to God each night that he can help make this possible. I just need to actually do this. I want to show her I'm a man and that there is indeed someone out there who likes her, and is indeed her crush. I'd probably make her entire week or rest of her life if this worked. I'm pretty confident she likes me, so I'm nearly confident this will work.

Christmas is just around the corner!

Christmas is once again just around the corner. With just over 2 weeks before the day, I couldn't be more excited. I finally got around to ordering what I wanted to for Christmas, and it's actually some decent stuff, unlike last year where I got next to nothing, mostly because I didn't want anything. This year, I ordered a new case for my iPad, a new phone, an Under Armour sweatshirt and a pair of Under Armour sweatpants, as I have no good pairs of sweatpants at all, and I really like Under Armour. I'm especially excited about the new phone, as it's touchscreen and has a sliding QWERTY keyboard along with. It's not that my current phone is broken, it's just time for an upgrade, as I've had my current phone for well over 3 years now.

I am almost as excited about my new case as I am my new phone. My current iPad's case is falling apart, and it's really a nuisance more than anything. It doesn't serve as a great stand, and it leaves too much of the edges and corners of the iPad exposed, so two of the corners of the iPad are slightly damaged from it accidentally hitting the side of the table where I keep it, and it's just getting old and is ripping in certain areas. If I keep it any longer, it'll probably fall apart even more and probably damage my iPad more than I want it to get damaged. It sucks that the two corners that got damaged are damaged, as now the iPad looks beat-up when out of the case, and not as awesome, but oh well. :( that's how life is. It's nearly impossible to keep that shit 100% intact, unless you're extremely OCD, which I'm only slightly. Yes, I've admitted it - I'm slighlty OCD.

My two other items I'm getting, the Under Armour sweatshirt and sweatpants, are going to be very nice, as I don't have many good sweatshirts to wear, and I only have one pair of sweatpants that fit me, but I use them for chores, and not school wear. The sweatshirt is black with a white "UA" logo on it, and the sweatpants are grey with a little "UA" logo on the side. The two will make for a nice outfit to wear to school. It'll also make for a nice outfit to tease one of my friends with that loves to wear sweatpants and sweatshirts. :) It's gonna be a good Christmas. I know it will be.

Not really so much related to Christmas, but I had started up this whole "TechSalsa" a couple of weeks ago, and I thought I had a great idea going for me. I was planning on making a YouTub account with that name and making very basic technical computer videos showing people who aren't so tech-savvy how to do basic things on computers, but I soon realized what a hassle it was for me. I couldn't even think of basic things that any computer-illiterate person may need help knowing how to do, so that was the biggest issue. The only video I had come up with was "How to Copy Files and/or Folders". Yeah. It was so basic, I was laughing at myself. But, it was something, so I started with that, seeing how it would go.

It didn't last long. I kept the video up for maybe 2 days before deciding to delete the video, the account, my website and my Google account associated with all of it. I had started regretting getting all of it set up, and I was worried about that happening when I started the site up. I knew that I was eventually going to lack motivation to keep making videos, and that's kind of the reason why I stopped making videos after my freshmen year of high school was over. I couldn't think of any good ideas, and I just wasn't motivated to make videos. Plus I sucked at editing them, so that just added to all of it. Anyway, I think this is a decent-sized post for today. That about does it!