I haven't posted on here in a while, but I've been pretty busy these last few months, so that's why. I finished my first year of college last month (May 16th), and I started a job as a Mechanical Design Intern at Briggs & Stratton near Milwaukee, so I've had little time to do things like this.
Anyway, now that I've briefly mentioned why I was a ghost on here for so long, now onto what I usually do, which is talk about what's on my mind (I think, anyway...) and just blog. I've recently had more and more deep thoughts about dating. I've definitely indicated that idea in past posts here about relationships and girls that I became close with over time (One in particular.). Every time I watch a movie or TV show that deals with a relationship, I always say to myself that I wish that were me. Like just this evening, I went to see San Andreas, and there was a man about my age with a cool accent and an attractive girl that came to like each other throughout the film, and by the end you could tell they were together. I worry that I won't ever get to that point in my life, and I won't be able to land a girl that beautiful. I mean, I like to think I'm confident, and always play scenarios over in my head where I would be talking to a girl that seems interested in me and be able to handle it smoothly, but I know that in reality it wouldn't be nearly that easy for me. I know for a fact that if I walked into a bar with some buddies and they all said I should talk with that cute girl over there, first of all I'd have a hard time bringing myself to simply walking over by her, but also not being awkward about the whole thing and asking a really stupid question or stumbling/stuttering or doing something I don't normally do when I'm not nervous.
I don't know, I guess I just feel like I don't get out enough to be confident like that and know how to play things in the real world. I'm not as smooth as these people in the movies that wanna get that girl in the bar are, and I'm not as quick-witted as them. Just like Will Smith in "Hitch". He's at a bar and sees a cute girl surrounded by like 4 or 5 guys, and he gives her some money and talks to her as if she works there, but she then goes after him saying she doesn't work there, and then he proceeds to say "Hey, I know you didn't work here. How else was I supposed to get you away from all those guys?" I mean, I don't think I'd be able to pull of a response or even a move like that. Maybe when I get a little older, into my 20s, I'll develop my confidence around other people a little more and be able to converse with others in a better manner. Confidence is a big thing with women, and it can be the difference between sparking a great, lasting relationship and missing out on her forever to some other guy that has the mark you left unchecked. That sounds like a really cool quote, haha.
Anyway, I'm tired, my stomach is aching, and I should get to bed. It's 1:10am, and I need some sleep. Until next time (Hopefully not too long.)!
