Alright, time to let off some "steam"...

So, I'm not really meaning "steam" as in heat or anger about something, just general me being honest about how I feel on things in life and how I take things personally.

First of all, I don't really think I've been using this blog the right way ever since I started it up in 2010. In my eyes, a blog is a place on the internet where you give people advice on a subject, share a view on a controversial topic, give recipes on certain great food, etc. It's not an online journal, and to me, that seems to be all I've ever written in the sense of, as if this were my personal journal. I mean, I realize next to no one reads this blog, aside from the few that happen to come across it when click the "Next Blog" link at the top of each blog page, but really, it's not much traffic. With every post I make, I'm hoping that maybe it will actually sound like I'm blogging and not writing another entry in my journal, which it ends up being anyway - a journal entry. I may sound pissed off with this, and that's exactly what I'm going for here. I did say wanted to let off some steam, right?

My second item I'd like to cover here is how I converse with other people, specifically: friends. In what way? Through social media, texting, in-person... all of it. For instance, on Facebook, I'm in a group with some good friends of mine from our State FFA Band, and I feel like I'm one of the people posting every other post, and sometimes I get the sense that I annoy them with how much I'm posting things. Many times I'll think of a status that I think would be funny to post, but then I'm just like, "Is this really gonna be funny to anyone else besides me? Probably not.", and then I end up not posting it. If I never thought it through, I'd probably have twice the amount of posts than I do now. Even so, I sometimes wish I didn't post on that group page as much as I did.

• The same goes for talking with people in-person and hanging out with them. Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to go for the most attention or I'm trying to be funnier than I think I'm being, or just simply a little annoying. I've come to feel that, over the years of being in the State FFA Band and the National FFA Band and making a ton of new friends and kinda feeling like the center of attention a little, my ego has grown slightly and I feel like big man on campus, even though I don't want that about me. I don't wanna be that person who thinks they're all that and then some, when really they're a huge d-bag and kind of an arrogant bastard. 

Even within my own family, I sometimes need to tone it down and not be so annoying. I realize that being a brother comes with its natural being annoying parts, and that's just how it is (especially when you have 3 sisters and no brothers) sometimes. I've certainly matured over the years, and that can only grow as I learn more right from wrong and how to act and all that jazz, but still, I always look on my life at night when I'm in bed, nearly ready to fall asleep, thinking about events in my life and what I probably should've done, shouldn't have done, ya know.

Sometimes I just wanna drop off the face of the internet for a while and kinda let that all cool down, get more out of life that way. I really miss the days of not having Facebook, back in early middle and grade school days. It dawns on me once in a while, when I'm bored at home and don't really have much to do, I've got Facebook, YouTube, Instagram, Vine, Twitter, and the whole of the internet to cruise on, but back in like 4th and 5th grade, I didn't do any of that stuff (besides YouTube), and I wish I could go back to that once in a while. \

Oh yeah - I also wish I could stop cracking my knuckles, for good. I've tried stopping numerous times here and there, but it always ends up being broken a few days later after the temptation either getting too great or I catch myself unconsciously cracking them. One last thing, and I'm not making a separate paragraph for this - I want to become more confident in myself and be able to more easily talk to attractive girls. One final last thing (haha), I want to be able to talk more intelligently and not sound like a complete idiot like I sometimes do. Comment on things that people will agree on, say things that are intriguing, not say things that make people shake their heads at me or laugh at what I just said because it was so off.

I'd love to talk about more, but that's really the main stuff, and I'm kinda done bringing myself down with all these shit things about me. Hopefully I can improve upon all that. Heck, maybe I won't exactly "give up" Facebook for Lent this year, I'll just kinda not go on it and stay off for a while so I don't tempt myself with it. Maybe even delete the app and really kick it into high gear. Anyway, that's all I'll say for now, until next time.

Football

So, football. Football football football. Lots of football lately. The regular season ended about two weeks ago, and the playoffs started last weekend. The Wildcard games were last weekend, the Divisional games are this weekend and the AFC and NFC Championship games are next weekend. The Super Bowl is on Sunday, February 1st, and I'm hoping the Packers are in it. They are playing the Dallas Cowboys tomorrow at 12:05 PM, and they have a pretty good chance of winning, especially because they are playing at home and are currently undefeated at home (8-0). The Cowboys, however, are 8-0 on the road (aka undefeated), and so it's gonna be a tough match-up, it ain't gonna be a cake walk by any means.

Aaron Rodgers was hurt a little bit against the Lions in Week 17, and his calf and I think his left leg are what have been giving him trouble the past few weeks. The Packers did have a bye week, so he got some additional time off to let his leg heal, but I don't think it's gonna be 100% by tomorrow. Rodgers was, however, able to finish the game and beat the Lions 30-20 after aggravating his left leg, so that shows a lot with how well he's able to play under some pain and pressure. I mean, if a quarterback is already playing on an injured leg, aggravates it after throwing a TD, goes out of the game for not even a half hour and then comes back and wins the game anyway, I don't get how that isn't a deserving MVP award moment.

Anyway, I'm pretty excited about the game, nervous about how the Packers defense can handle Romo and the Cowboys offense, but I'm sure they'll pull it off in the end. I don't always predict the outcomes of games and their scores, but I'm gonna go for it on this one and say the Packers are either gonna win by a field goal or one TD, or they'll lose by two TDs. The score? 37-30. That's gonna be my guess. It's a good strong amount of points and a reasonable gap for the Packers and the Cowboys. I mean, based on how the Cowboys played against the Lions, it could be a very close game. We beat them (Lions) 30-20, but the Cowboys won by just 4 points, 24-20, so I'd say we have a decent chance of even making it a two possession win.

Alright, so halftime is over for the Seahawks and Panthers game. I'm kinda rooting for the Panthers because I think we have a better chance of going to the SB off of the Panthers than we do off of the 'Hawks. Who knows? We could very well kick the 'Hawks ass too, ya never know how the Pack ends up playing against Wilson and his team. I'd love to see that happen, but we gotta wait another day before we find out their potential. Until next time!

New Layout, New This, New That...

So I changed up my blog's layout a little, as you can tell. I figured it was time to shake things up a bit and make a change here. I watched a movie called "The House at the End of the Street", and Jennifer Lawrence was in it. I don't know if any of you guys have seen it, but it's sort of a horror/suspense film, and I kinda liked it. Kinda because it's Jennifer Lawrence, but also because those kind of films I do like just a bit. I hate scary movies, don't get me wrong, but suspense I can deal with... to an extent. I also recently heard that Jennifer Lawrence and Liam Hemsworth are now dating, which is awesome. She was with Nicholas Hoult for a while, and then apparently Chris Martin for 6 months or so, and now she and Hemsworth are rolling things right along. It's pretty cool to think that those two are rumored to be together now, since I was always wondering if those two would ever become a thing, which now they supposedly have. It's mostly rumor right now, but I think it's pretty close to being a confirmed fact.

Ever since I got into Hunger Games and learned of Jennifer Lawrence, I've always hoped that I meet someone like her or of her personality, someone that I could date. She has that girly side to her, but she's also got that got that tough girl side to that shows she can be independent and think for herself. That to me is what a great girlfriend would be. There's this girl I met at National FFA band last year in October, she's from South Dakota, and she was pretty cute. She's one of those girls who has a girly side, but also has that tomboy attitude as well, only with her it's literally. When we met the then-current National FFA officer team, she took the guy that we were talking with down to the ground in less than 5 seconds, it was crazy shit. I just realized that my title for this post has nothing to do with 95% of what I'm talking about right now. It's only relevant to the first two sentences, so more like 98% of what I'm talking about.

Tomorrow is the more "official" Alumni Pep band, and I'm going to it, because, why wouldn't I? A lot of my old high school friends will be there, and it's always a good time. Sometimes I feel like I'm not using this blog like I should be. A blog, to me, is something where you tell people about how to go about doing something, giving advice, showing pictures of places you're traveling to and so on and so forth. I'm just going on and on about what's happening in my life and how I'm working with things.

Agh, whatever though, this is my blog. I'm watching "The King of Queens" right now, starring Kevin James and Leah Remini. They're both great actors, and Leah Remini is actually kinda hot. It's a great show, really, and I watch it almost every night. On the nights that I'm not watching it I'm either not home at the moment or I forgot about it. I'm struggling to come up with things to talk about here. You guys don't mind, right? You guy enough enjoyment out of whatever I type up on here anyway, so I could ramble for hours and never bore you, I think... well, maybe. Now I am rambling because I really have nothing to talk about. And it's funny - every time I run out of something to talk about, I talk about rambling and how I suddenly have an entire paragraph typed up because of it.

Alright, I think that's all for now, ta ta for now!