What I've realized about myself.

So the semester is nearly complete for this Fall. I've got 3 classes left - 2 regular (probably studying) days and then the final exam on Tuesday, December 20th. I have an 85% going right now, which is a solid B-, I think. I did well enough on the first two tests that when the third was dropped, it actually bumped my grade up two percent, from an 83 to an 85. Anyway, just a week and a half left, and then it's Winter Break and then only 16 weeks left until GRADUATION! I'm so freaking excited to pass this class and get that much closer to probably being done with school forever. I say probably because depending on the type of full-time job, I may or may not go back for 2 more years if they pay/reimburse my tuition.

Now that I've gotten through that introduction for this post, onto what I really want to talk about. Over the past couple of months, or weeks at least, I've come to find that I like to freak out/stress over something I'm doing in a group that I'm not sure of and immediately start asking "Wait, what?" to get caught up again. For instance, a couple weeks ago, I was working on some homework in-class with a few classmates and near the end I was constantly saying "Wait, what?" because I didn't quite follow what they were writing down, but also because I wasn't just simply LOOKING for myself to find the equation they used or the numbers they got. One guy was even like, "Dude, look. Right here. Just look at the graph we've been using this whole time." It wasn't that exact dialogue, but you get the idea. He was right, though. I just needed to look at the same chart and the equation was just staring me in the face.

So that was one example. Another was when I was playing Garry's Mod with some high school friends and we were making our own cars from scratch. I kept asking my friend who's pretty knowledgeable about gmod (what we call it) a bunch of questions about my car that kept having issues, but I think I could've figured it out on my own had I just continued trial and erroring with it. I don't think he was too annoyed by it, but I did feel bad for constantly being like "Gaaaaah this isn't working... what the helllll." and stuff like that.

Those two instances are what have made me realize that I tend to freak out a little over stuff that isn't making sense the first time around or if I'm getting a little lost with something. It's not horrible, but is an aspect of myself I could work on, and will. Christmas break is just around the corner, so it's a good time to get that shit in order. I've got some significant New Year's resolutions for myself that I'm going to do my best in following through on, but I'll keep them to myself. The internet doesn't need to know everything. I've already got the whole going to the gym and working out thing under my belt. I just really hope there isn't a surge of new people after the holidays that have put "Get into shape." on their resolutions, that's really annoying. Then you're gonna have people in there using machines you use all the time that only work out a couple weeks and slowly taper off and go back to their dumb lives. I'm starting to relate more and more to that one picture of a gym on December 31st and then on January 1st, the former showing almost no one in the gym and the latter showing every treadmill taken up. It's funny, but annoying if that actually ends up happening. I don't work out until the evening usually, early afternoon on certain days, so hopefully that doesn't affect me too much.

That's all I've got for this post. Christmas is just about two weeks away! Whoop whoop!

2016 Platteville Homecoming

I went to my older sister's Homecoming field show yesterday in Platteville, and it was really good. We also watched the football game and the Pioneers beat the Falcons 45-14. It was a fun day overall, especially getting to throw a hatchet at a tree that was right next to where Lindsay and her friends are live throughout the school year. Unfortunately, the Badgers lost to the Buckeyes 30-23 in OT later that night, dropping them down to 4-2, with OSU staying undefeated at 6-0. We had to listen to the game on the radio because we were on our way home from Platteville by the time halftime started, and it was a little more than a two hour drive home, so we wouldn't make it home before the game ended. Anyway, one of my personal favorite parts of the day was going to the Country Kitchen for dinner. Not only was my Chicken Bacon Melt delicious, but the waitress was really damn cute. Here comes the best part... *epic drumroll*... I GAVE HER MY NUMBER ON  A NAPKIN THAT I LEFT ON THE TABLE AND SHE TEXTED ME LATER THAT NIGHT!!!

...just kidding. I wish I had. She was really pretty though. The more I thought about it on the way home, the more she reminded me of a friend from State FFA band - Colleen. She had the same kind of eyes, and a fantastic body, might I add. I had thought about the fact that I should've put my number down on the receipt before leaving, but I remembered that was impossible since my dad paid for the meal up front at the register. The only way I could've seen myself pulling it off would've been when we left, I should've taken a napkin and written my number on it and put it on a plate where it was easily seen. I would've had to hope she would be coming around again to collect more plates when we left. It's moments like those where I really think about what I could have or should have done, and then can only dwell on those missed opportunities and just move forward. All my friends (well, really just one in particular) keep nagging on me to get talking to girls and ask them out, but I never actually do it.One of these days, though, I'm just gonna be like "Fuck it, I've sat back long enough, I'm done being a child about it. I'm in my 20s, there's no excuse anymore." There hasn't been an excuse in the last couple years, I'm just not manning up when I should. Sure, I manned up when I asked Courtney out, but that was a solid year ago now, and I'm pretty damn sure she both doesn't remember me asking her out and who I even am. It's almost like a chance for a do-over, but there's always that bit where maybe she suddenly does remember me asking her out and she's like "Didn't you ask me out a while back?" and I'd say something like "Yeah, and I thought I'd try again, shorti. That boyfriend of yours treating you right?" NOW WHY THE FUCK CAN'T I TALK LIKE THAT IN PERSON TO GIRLS, OR HER?! Probably because I can't think that quick on my feet, takes my brain a while to process a smooth line like that. Seriously though, that would be a classy way to bring it up again. I honestly might do that the next time I happen to be in her area. Time to man up and stop being a wimp. BOSS TIME.

I did it!

I would certainly say it was a mission successfully accomplished. I logged out of all of my social media accounts on Sunday night, deleted all apps from my phone and all bookmarks from my computer and I didn't have a single hiccup. It felt good to be off of Facebook and Twitter and all those sites this past week and just be away from all those annoying people. I'll be jumping back into everything tomorrow, however, since the break is over and I'm happy with it. I just hope I remember all the passwords for each account and don't forget any logins. It shouldn't be a problem; I'm pretty good at remembering that stuff.

I also finally got a job at a place called Dorner Manufacturing in Hartland. They make conveyor systems and use SolidWorks for designing, and I'm really excited to start working there. It probably won't be until Monday, September 12th because next Monday is Labor Day, and by Tuesday I'll be getting a drug test scheduled. That probably won't happen until Wednesday or Thursday, and I'm sure it won't be finalized until the weekend or Monday, so probably in a week or two I'll start. I'm sooooo ready to start bringing that moolah back into my bank account. Who knows? Maybe I'll make enough to get a zero-turn before the snow falls! That's honestly one thing I'm really set on getting once the dough starts rolling in. I told my parents back in like mid July that I'd be willing to pay half for one, and they seemed fine with it, but that was in the midst of unemployment. As soon as a few weeks go by and I've raked in a chunk of money, I'll be looking. If I do end up getting a zero-turn by October, at least the cutting will be a piece of cake.

Anyway, I'm suddenly very tired and want to get to bed. Goodnight!

I'm back. Momentarily.

Alright, so I've might a slight return. This is by no means a return to post every day or more frequently. I'm just posting to inform all of you "followers" that I've decided to go on a one-week social media hiatus. Last night, I logged out of and deleted everything (off of my phone): Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, and Vine. Yes, even Snapchat and Vine. I didn't delete my accounts, I just logged out of them and removed the apps from my iPhone and the bookmarks from my computers. I realized that I'm actually looking at my phone a LOT, scrolling through Facebook News Food and Twitter, popping Snapchat open just as frequently, as well as Instagram. It just got to be too much. I've mildly considered the possibility of actually deleting my Twitter and Instagram accounts, but I've never really fully considered going through with it. I only got a Twitter because, at the time I got it, YouTube was a shit about things and wouldn't allow comments w/o connecting your Google+ account to it, and I wasn't having it. One YouTuber, Jonathan Paula, made a video about the comments section situation, and said that if you don't have that ability anymore, leave him a tweet. I did that and that's how my Twitter came to be. The reason I want to get rid of Twitter, but don't, is because of the reason I got Twitter. The reason I want to get rid of Instagram is because I don't post on it anymore and I'm not a huge fan of it. If I could somehow convince myself, I'd go back to just having my Facebook and YouTube accounts, with Snapchat on the side. No Twitter, no Instagram, probably no Vine either. For now, however, I'm sticking it out this week with no social media of any kind on my phone and computers. I'm feeling pretty good about it so far, and I think I can pull through. I'm not like some people who barely make it the first morning and have to peek.

Wow. That is a HUUUUUGE paragraph. And yes, that was a Donald Trump reference. He's the Republican nominee for President. Did you know that? Crazy, huh? Hell, Kanye West plans on running in 2020. I guess by then, anything will really be possible. I mean, if a sad excuse for a human being is able to run for the highest office in the country, I guess a monkey can be CEO of Disney. They're basically one and the same, right? No? Oh, wait! Sorry - back on topic.

Anyway, like I said, I'm taking a one-week social media hiatus, and I'm feeling great about it. This morning, I showered, ate breakfast, cleaned downstairs, and brushed my teeth. All before 10 AM. Usually, I'd get up, turn the shower on, look at my phone and check Twitter, then do all that phone stuff over breakfast, waste 10 more minutes on my phone, finally brush my teeth, then maybe on my computer, get to cleaning, and then be done. That... kinda had me out of breath just typing that. Yeah, it's good to be away from that stuff for a while. I'm also sick of all the "trends" that are born online by other stupid or seemingly entitled assholes. I'm tired of it and want to go back to the days before all that existed. The days before social media was a past-time for me. I'm reliving it now, and I couldn't be happier about it. Okay, quit glorifying it, dude. It ain't that fantastic. Sure, it's a good feeling, but it ain't like you're going back 10 years and feeling like a kid again. Stop it.

Anywho, that's my big thing going on, besides a job search. That gave me a fun ride this summer. I've finally got something starting soon, hopefully. Dorner Manufacturing in Hartland is looking for a Temp.-to-hire Designer, and a woman at a recruiting agency helped me get there. I'm excited about it and looking forward to getting back to work and making money! Goodnight!