Well, it's apparently been just over a year since I've posted anything on this thing. Oops. Today was Thanksgiving, so that was nice. And, oh yeah, not too much has happened in that year, as is pretty obvious by the fact that I almost forgot to bring that part up. I'm mostly waiting for my graphics driver to finish downloading and installing an update, and figured what better time to blog than right now, right? I'm strongly contemplating uninstalling Firefox from my computer. I use Chrome entirely now, and have been for the last few years. Chrome's much faster, cleaner, more responsive, and doesn't feel as clunky as Firefox does, even though Mozilla claims that it's a much better experience after so many updates. I mean, Chrome's always been pretty quick, so Imma stick with it. It's about to install the graphics update now, so my screen might go a little haywire in a bit. I hate the fact that my eyes can't handle bright screens as night very well. I have this app called f.lux installed that dims the screen and helps with light in dark rooms, and I just turned it down to the lowest setting.
I like a girl. I think. I don't know, it kind of zig-zags every other day or week. She goes to UW-Whitewater (I'm kinda done being all "private" on here. Let's face it, who's really gonna see this and suddenly make a big deal about some details?) and is roommates with my younger sister. She's only 18 but ambitious as all shit. My sister says she's really smart, and maybe she is, but I see it more as just having a shitload of ambition. She's graduating college in like a year and is majoring in Supply Chain, so she'll be making boatloads of cash in no time. Sometimes I ponder the thought of us being together, and it's pretty great, but then I start not thinking that. I really hate the fact that I feel like I owe it to my sister to at least go out on an actual date with her roommate just to see if we'd even work out as a couple.
I told her (my sister) a while back that I thought I had a really good plan for asking her out, but at the time she (the girl I like) was getting wrapped up in a bunch of stuff with college, work, and whatever other life she was dealing with, and I guess it was more than she felt like handling to want to think about dating again. That's fine, I understand the reasoning, and can respect it, but it kinda sucks. My luck with dating hasn't been great since trying to event get into that world. The very first time I tried asking someone out, it was Christmas, I was 17, and I apparently waited too long. It was a blessing, though, because she ended up marrying someone 10 years older than her and, as far as I'm aware, works as a pizza guy at The Mineshaft. The second time was at WCTC. She worked the cash register in the cafeteria, and was really freakin' cute. She unfortunately already had a boyfriend, so can't really do much about that. I'm not even counting any online dating bullshit because it was just that. Bullshit. My third attempt was with someone who I literally just got done unfriending on Facebook (oohhh I know, the drama of unfriending nowadays... lol). That's a story for another paragraph.
After my family and I went camping at Devil's Lake over Memorial Day with some relatives, a roommate of one of my cousin's that was there apparently told my cousin's family she was interested in me. This was then relayed by my cousin's parents to mine, and they then informed me of it. I thought it was pretty cool since I did think she was kinda cute too. I proceeded to friend her shortly after, and we started talking not longer after that. Following several days later, I decided to ask if she wanted to go to the new Jurassic World movie with me. Here's where the bullshit started. She tells me she's "not interested in dating anyone right now, and I don't want to lead you on". First of all, this didn't make any sense at all based on what my aunt and uncle told me she told them initially, so I was confused as all shit right here. Second, literally two months later she's dating someone else. I was dumbfounded by the whole thing, and pissed off (with good reason in my eyes). Don't tell my aunt and uncle that you're into me, then proceed to reject my offer because you're not "interested in dating right now", and then say yes to some other guy two months later. What, you weren't interested in dating then, but suddenly two months go by, another guy asks you out, and things are different now? Why not inquire with me again if you were interested in me in the first place? Was it a pathetic offer that turned you off?
I wouldn't be so pissed off at her if she hadn't supposedly told family members of mine she was interested in me, rejects me, and then dates someone else 60 days later. Like what the actual fuck? Someone said she might've said something like "Yeah, I'd date someone like him." Huh? So someone like him, but not actually him? How the fuck does that make any sense?
Anyway, that's my rant on the third experience, and I don't regret anything I said there. TL:DR; A roommate of my cousin told my cousin's parents she was interested in me, rejected me because of no interest in anyone right now, and then started dating someone else two months later.
Now with this next girl, we'll see what happens. We're good friends at the moment, and that's never a bad way to start a relationship. I kinda wanna ask my sister what she or her friend meant by saying I should wait and stay friends for a while before dating. What's "a while"? The semester? Till graduation? She moves out of Whitewater? That could mean any time. I'm done now, though. With this post, that is. I'm gonna start rambling a lot and not making much sense really soon (if I haven't already) and go to bed. So yeah. Beards and beers!
