Hehe, posting at work

 As the title would suggest, I am posting on here while at work. I know - quite the rebel I am. 

Since my last post almost a year ago, I've changed jobs and it was a really good idea. My previous line of work was getting really stale and I knew I needed something fresh and different. I'm now in the Sustaining Engineering department, which is much easier for me to get a grasp on than NPD. This new role focuses on product that is already being manufactured as opposed to working on new designs that are supposed to drive the future of the business. 

Other than that, the new house is still great, already been moved out for over a year. I swear 2022 felt like it lasted three months. As if that year didn't fly by, we're already 4 months into 2023. 

Anyway, figured I'd be rebellious for a few minutes and update my blog while I'm working... hehe. And yes, I'm still mad that I never posted in 2021, thus breaking my streak since 2010. 😕

Well son of a bitch

I just realized I never posted an entry last year, and that breaks my streak since I started this blog back in 2010. That actually makes me really sad. What's really frustrating is I did have a post started last August that I was probably going to submit but decided against for some reason?

Anyways, I'm moved out now. Bought a house 8 minutes-ish down the road from my parents, so that's cool. Girlfriend moved in, things are going great so far. Work is work, nothing fantastic. I did sort of apply for a new job last Wednesday, but I'm starting to have doubts about it. The guy I talked with is who I presume I'd be reporting to - didn't get a great first impression from him. Can't work from home, so that's almost a dealbreaker right there. 

Other than that, not a ton else to spit out. Still salty I never posted at all last year, lol.

From "Flatten The Curve" To "Just Cancel Everything"

Most smart people are aware CoVID-19 is not going away anytime soon. It's probably here to stay just like the common flu. That doesn't mean it should control us, and that's what's happening now. Almost all, if not every, events have been canceled this summer due to the virus. Summerfest got postponed to September (cuz that makes sense, go to *summer*fest in September...), the EAA flying event, WI State Fair, movies... everything got taken out. We went from President Donald Trump's "flatten the curve to slow the spread of the coronavirus" to essentially "we can't take any risks with this thing so all activities planned for the year are canceled".

I understood quarantining for the first few weeks to figure out how this virus behaved and waiting for the medical data to start populating, I think everyone did, because all you heard was "listen to the experts! Follow the science/math!" for a month. Then, two doctors out of Kern County, CA gave an hour-long press conference to a handful of reporters and laid out what data they had collected. Based off of everything they'd gathered and from their professional opinions, they didn't get why everyone was still being told to "shelter in place" and wash your hands so often. Even today, as more and more data comes though, it's being shown that this virus isn't what we were being told it was. Yet anyone who only follows the media/"experts" turns a blind eye to the data because it doesn't fit their agenda.

Back when President Trump made the decision to shut the country down, he did it based off of some "expert's" model that predicted as many as 2.2 million Americans would perish if no measures were taken against the virus. The problem? That model was created from 10 year old technology. From a guy who had gotten other pandemic predictions wrong in the past. Consistently. Oh and he also broke his own quarantine rules to fool around with a married woman. Tell me again why we decided to listen to this dumbass?

I was told this morning that I for sure won't be back in the office until July 1st. I'm fine with that. I've been working remotely since March 23rd, so it's not like I can't handle another 4 weeks at home. At least the gym and the local theatre have both reopened in the last two days, so things are starting to get back to how they should be.

The biggest issue I take with this is how at the beginning it was about, as I said earlier, flattening the curve so the spread was slowed and hospitals weren't overrun with patients. We did that, the majority of hospitals in most states are doing fine with patients, I think. It turned into not taking any chances, even though we're handling it, and just straight-up canceling this year. Instead of letting things open or go on and having people decide for themselves if they want to risk it, it's just all shut down.

What a fun year 2020 is shaping up to be. Woop. Guess no one knows what's best for themselves, we have to let the government decide that.

The Pandemic That Destroyed The Economy

It's Friday afternoon, about 3 PM. Your friend group of 6 people is making plans for the night. Meet up at 5, play some games for an hour, get some grub, see a movie, maybe get a late-night snack, and call it a night.

That's what everyone wishes they could be doing. Instead, we've been told, by the government, to stay inside our homes (or go out for essential things, but stay six feet away from other people) for at least the next month. No sporting events, no school (in-person), no new movies, no gatherings of any kind, nothing that you would normally do in a day that doesn't include essential work or just basic survival stuff.

Why is this happening, you ask? It's all because of a virus that could've been prevented from spreading at this magnitude had the country it originated from dealt with it and not covered shit up until it was deep into the roots of the United States. A virus that, now, is apparently all President Donald Trump's fault, because he didn't act fast enough to stop this from spreading. Except he did. He cut off all international travel to China (the country it originated from) as soon as their President informed him of what was happening. Two months AFTER it was an issue. TWO. FUCKING. MONTHS. The Chinese government started blaming the US military for causing it, claiming they brought it over to China, or some bullshit. President Trump, in turn, started calling it the Chinese Virus, because, ya know, that's where it's from, and certainly isn't racist like the media says it is. That's right - instead of asking questions pertaining to treatment and the outlook of this disease, they're worried about what he's fucking calling it.

Anyway, yes, it started in China. More specifically, at some animal market in Wuhan, supposedly transferred from a bat to humans. In the early days of testing, the WHO (World Health Organization) claimed that there was no hard evidence this virus was transferable from human to human. Boy were they off on that. It's like the flu, can be worse, but is a new strand of it, called COVID-19, and being new is highly contagious since no one is immune to it. It's most dangerous to the elderly and anyone with underlying health conditions. Now. Here's where we dive into how this thing is completely derailing what was a phenomenal and booming economy, and how our reaction to it is asinine and completely wrong.

On Thursday, March 12th, 2020, the NBA announced it was suspending its season until further notice after a player for the Utah Jazz had confirmed positive for COVID-19. There was about two weeks left of regular season gameplay. Everything got postponed. Then literally every other major league sport in the US followed suit and got suspended until further notice. The next day, Friday, movie studios began announcing the delays/postponements of movies slated for release in the coming weeks/months.

On Monday, March 15th, President Donald Trump issued a 15-day nationwide quarantine for everyone to "slow the spread of coronavirus". This later gave way to every non-essential business shutting down until they are given the clear to re-open.

As a result, you can start to imagine what happened. The stock market crashed harder than it did in 2008 when the housing market collapsed. Unemployment is over 3 million people, and somehow that's a surprise to people, even though it's because everything that wasn't vital to survival and the fight against COVID-19 was closed down. Congress struggled to pass a bill that would give everyone at least $1000 to get by for the next month, and apparently that couldn't pass without a bunch of bullshit thrown in by Nancy goddamn Pelosi, who is a pile of shit if I might add.

The media loves scaring people over something that isn't a huge deal, and they're probably the biggest culprit in this mess. At the start, every time another state had its first confirmed case, it was breaking news. Then it was the first death. Apparently 2,191 deaths matter more than the 30-40,000 that occur from the common flu every fucking year. Oh and that has treatment and a vaccine. Or ya know, from cancer, car accidents, murders, old age, or literally anything else that kills people every year.

I guess 2,000 deaths is cause to shut everything down and have the government start telling you what to do instead of just being smart about washing your hands and not sneezing into someone's face.

Now, I get being precautious and trying to contain something that no one is immune to. But when the majority of people will be fine, why take this course of action. Why shut everything down that isn't "essential" and put people out of work? The way I see it, quarantine those most at-risk and the elderly, and let other people who can handle it deal with it and allow the economy to keep moving. Maybe stop freaking the fuck out about a flu-like virus, stop always listening to the media, and move along.

Like President Trump has said, the cure cannot be worse than the virus itself. And the way I see it, the country is going to eventually have to resume business with this virus still around. We can't live like this for a year until a vaccine is approved, we just can't. People need to be able to continue working, plan events, and live their lives.

Get a treatment. Mobilize testing kits (which is being done). Done. Problem solved until we have a vaccine.

Stop freaking out, if you get it, you'll likely get over it. Someone dies from it, it's terrible, but it happens. We're born, we live, we die. I'm not wishing death on people who get it, it's just part of life. If we can lessen the amount of deaths, that's awesome, I'm all for it. BUT it can't in turn wreck American lives and put us into another great depression all because of how we handled it.

Confessions

I haven't posted here in a year, so that's what that is.

I'm not sure why I decided to start this post with the above sentence, but it's there and staying. Too lazy to change it. Bite me.

That last sentence may have sounded a bit harsh, but it's only partially true. I'm slowly getting sick of where I work. I've been doing the same thing for the last three years, with a few smaller projects squeezed in throughout. I was recently moved downstairs from the Web Apps group to NPD in somewhat of a "promotion". I started in NPD when I first joined the company in September 2016, then moved upstairs to Web Applications in May 2017, where I was then housed for a year and a half before moving back down to NPD to do more of the actual design work. The only problem with that is I haven't done a ton of that stuff. When I first moved down, I had a ton of Sales Requests (the work I've been doing since employed there) to do, and then eventually started doing the Shop training that I was supposed to do when I was first hired on three years prior. After that, the project I was told I'd be starting with another engineer was mostly underway on his part since I was away from the office for four whole days in the shop. By the time I was done with that training and was finally caught up on requests, the project was totally covered by the other person, and I felt like I was useless in that regard. They keep changing my responsibilities with it too. It's really annoying.

If that whole paragraph sounded like a ramble and didn't make much sense, I don't blame you. There's just a lot of thought going through my mind right now and it's hard to spill it out on here in an efficient manner. I kind of want to find a new place to work. There is another place a couple of my college friends currently work at and enjoy, but the only position available that sort of relates to what I'm looking for is sort of a step ahead of my current expertise. I did put my resume up on Indeed.com, so we'll see where that gets me. I've had countless recruiters contact my through LinkedIn, but most of them were sending offers while I was in the thick of SRs, and wasn't worrying about finding a new job at the time. My best window of opportunity was right around the time someone else from the Web Apps group left for a job that was much closer to where he lived. I wasn't doing much more than the SRs and easily could've picked up and left without leaving much of anything left to do.

Enough with the work rant for now. Onto my personal life stuff.

There are currently two other people I hang out with pretty consistently. By consistently, I mean almost every day of the week... or at least every other day of the week so far this summer. at first it was a lot of fun because I finally took the plunge and made my own version of a man cave in our basement, fitted with a 65" 4K Samsung TV, a couple nice reclining couches, and a great stand to match, so I can have them over practically whenever to game, watch movies, and just hang out. The problem is they're getting a little too comfortable with hanging out. They both know I'm pretty reliable with that and am always around, so usually by 5 or 6 PM, one of them is asking about gaming and either being at my house or the other one's, usually mine because of more room. I wish we didn't game as much as we do though. Not that I don't like gaming, it's just there are some days I would rather relax at home, game on my own, watch a movie on my own, or just bum around without them wanting to hang out. And it's not even so much the hanging out, I just see the same people all the time.

The only reason I write this here is because I'm pretty sure next to no one reads this stuff, and if those friends found it I'd feel horrible, but it's kind of true. I've also realized I'm kinda shit at saying no to stuff, especially when it comes to getting food/hanging out. My one friend is almost offended when I don't wanna meet for dinner. Not exactly offended, I guess, more like a friendly "How dare you." but then moves on from it.

I don't know. I don't really want this week to start. I'm nervous as shit about what's gonna happen with this project that I've done jack shit with because of Sales Requests. They're so unpredictable, that's the problem. I never know if I'm gonna be able to stake out half my work time for them and something else or just all of that.

I'm sorry but I'm done. I can't really seem to make a flowing anything right now. I need sleep. G'night.

You Can Do This

I'm gonna take the next 6 minutes to write up this blog post to reassure myself of stuff. I got really down on Saturday after, first of all, hardcore failing to talk to a cute girl at a shoe store that I was hyping myself up the week prior to do what I didn't do, and second of all, didn't manage to find any pants or workout shoes that I wanted for Christmas, so... here goes.

You can do this. You will find someone out there eventually. It may not be tomorrow, or this week, or the next week, or the next, or this year even, but eventually.

You will find a better job with better pay with people you can relate better to. Not that your current job doesn't give you this, but you know what you mean.

You will get a place of your own where you make the rules and have everything as you want it. You won't have to worry about bringing a date home where mom and dad are because you haven't moved out yet. It will happen for you.

You will get to a more consistent workout schedule and start putting on noticeable muscle mass. It may be a very slow start, but you will establish a proper meal schedule and meet your nutritional goals. Don't worry about the last two years not seeing progress, they're called baby steps for a reason. Maybe you didn't use that right, but so what.

You will get out of this minor funk. You're strong and know what's good for you. Don't compare yourself to what you failed on previously. Learn from those mistakes and make them your bitch in the future.

You got this.





YOU.

GOT.

THIS.

Didn't Think You'd Show Up, Sheepy...

Well, it's apparently been just over a year since I've posted anything on this thing. Oops. Today was Thanksgiving, so that was nice. And, oh yeah, not too much has happened in that year, as is pretty obvious by the fact that I almost forgot to bring that part up. I'm mostly waiting for my graphics driver to finish downloading and installing an update, and figured what better time to blog than right now, right? I'm strongly contemplating uninstalling Firefox from my computer. I use Chrome entirely now, and have been for the last few years. Chrome's much faster, cleaner, more responsive, and doesn't feel as clunky as Firefox does, even though Mozilla claims that it's a much better experience after so many updates. I mean, Chrome's always been pretty quick, so Imma stick with it. It's about to install the graphics update now, so my screen might go a little haywire in a bit. I hate the fact that my eyes can't handle bright screens as night very well. I have this app called f.lux installed that dims the screen and helps with light in dark rooms, and I just turned it down to the lowest setting.

I like a girl. I think. I don't know, it kind of zig-zags every other day or week. She goes to UW-Whitewater (I'm kinda done being all "private" on here. Let's face it, who's really gonna see this and suddenly make a big deal about some details?) and is roommates with my younger sister. She's only 18 but ambitious as all shit. My sister says she's really smart, and maybe she is, but I see it more as just having a shitload of ambition. She's graduating college in like a year and is majoring in Supply Chain, so she'll be making boatloads of cash in no time. Sometimes I ponder the thought of us being together, and it's pretty great, but then I start not thinking that. I really hate the fact that I feel like I owe it to my sister to at least go out on an actual date with her roommate just to see if we'd even work out as a couple.

I told her (my sister) a while back that I thought I had a really good plan for asking her out, but at the time she (the girl I like) was getting wrapped up in a bunch of stuff with college, work, and whatever other life she was dealing with, and I guess it was more than she felt like handling to want to think about dating again. That's fine, I understand the reasoning, and can respect it, but it kinda sucks. My luck with dating hasn't been great since trying to event get into that world. The very first time I tried asking someone out, it was Christmas, I was 17, and I apparently waited too long. It was a blessing, though, because she ended up marrying someone 10 years older than her and, as far as I'm aware, works as a pizza guy at The Mineshaft. The second time was at WCTC. She worked the cash register in the cafeteria, and was really freakin' cute. She unfortunately already had a boyfriend, so can't really do much about that. I'm not even counting any online dating bullshit because it was just that. Bullshit. My third attempt was with someone who I literally just got done unfriending on Facebook (oohhh I know, the drama of unfriending nowadays... lol). That's a story for another paragraph.

After my family and I went camping at Devil's Lake over Memorial Day with some relatives, a roommate of one of my cousin's that was there apparently told my cousin's family she was interested in me. This was then relayed by my cousin's parents to mine, and they then informed me of it. I thought it was pretty cool since I did think she was kinda cute too. I proceeded to friend her shortly after, and we started talking not longer after that. Following several days later, I decided to ask if she wanted to go to the new Jurassic World movie with me. Here's where the bullshit started. She tells me she's "not interested in dating anyone right now, and I don't want to lead you on". First of all, this didn't make any sense at all based on what my aunt and uncle told me she told them initially, so I was confused as all shit right here. Second, literally two months later she's dating someone else. I was dumbfounded by the whole thing, and pissed off (with good reason in my eyes). Don't tell my aunt and uncle that you're into me, then proceed to reject my offer because you're not "interested in dating right now", and then say yes to some other guy two months later. What, you weren't interested in dating then, but suddenly two months go by, another guy asks you out, and things are different now? Why not inquire with me again if you were interested in me in the first place? Was it a pathetic offer that turned you off?

I wouldn't be so pissed off at her if she hadn't supposedly told family members of mine she was interested in me, rejects me, and then dates someone else 60 days later. Like what the actual fuck? Someone said she might've said something like "Yeah, I'd date someone like him." Huh? So someone like him, but not actually him? How the fuck does that make any sense?

Anyway, that's my rant on the third experience, and I don't regret anything I said there. TL:DR; A roommate of my cousin told my cousin's parents she was interested in me, rejected me because of no interest in anyone right now, and then started dating someone else two months later.

Now with this next girl, we'll see what happens. We're good friends at the moment, and that's never a bad way to start a relationship. I kinda wanna ask my sister what she or her friend meant by saying I should wait and stay friends for a while before dating. What's "a while"? The semester? Till graduation? She moves out of Whitewater? That could mean any time. I'm done now, though. With this post, that is. I'm gonna start rambling a lot and not making much sense really soon (if I haven't already) and go to bed. So yeah. Beards and beers!

The iPhone X: Underwhelming

I've been cruising along on the iPhone 6S since January 2016 and it has since served me well. The only problem; it's just 16 GB storage. For the last, I'd say, 8 or 9 months, I've been constantly having to manage the space left and struggle lately to keep the phone above just a couple hundred MBs. Plus, as is the case with most phones nowadays, the batter life has slowly diminished, leaving me to charge it every single night. When I first got the phone, I was getting a day and a half easy between charges - mind you, leaving it in Airplane Mode overnight, but still, not bad.

Anyway, my biggest three reasons for looking at new phones is because (1) the storage is lacking big time, (2) battery life is less than stellar, and (3) I literally can't update my phone anymore because of the limited storage space. I've tried removing any apps that I don't use anymore, but I noticed if I wanted to make a dent in free space I'd have to remove Spotify, as that app is using nearly 2.5 gigs of space with all the music I downloaded for offline use. My point is, I can't free up anymore space because there's nothing else on my phone that I'm not using that much.

Now that Apple has launched the iPhone 8, 8 Plus, and X, I've got some options. I checked out the X yesterday since it's the 10th anniversary of the iPhone and supposed to be the "future of smartphones". The minute I picked it up and unlocked it, I realized I didn't want this phone. Nothing about it made me giddy or feel like it would be even close to worth $1,000. I checked out the Animojis, and those were really more like something I'd have fun with for the first few weeks and then quickly lose interest in after that. Plus, I realize I still prefer having some kind of a physical home button, even if it doesn't actually click anymore. FaceID is probably cool and I'm sure works really great, but TouchID feels better for some reason. Not to mention, the multitasking features are a little awkward. You can't just swipe up and have any opened apps appear; you either swipe up and hold for a second, or swipe up and slightly to the right. To close them out, you hold down on them first and then swipe up to remove them, which sorta sucks.

After my test-run and further thought, I'm probably gonna go to the iPhone 8 and get the 256 gig model. That way, I've got a phone that I know I'm gonna like (same design as the 6, 6S, and 7), plenty of storage, and can keep it going for possibly 4 or 5 years. The 8 and X have the same processing chip, so there's nothing like a loss in power on either end, and TouchID is still there, so I consider this a win-win for me.

But yeah, the iPhone X doesn't seem like a phone that lives up to the hype the internet was surrounding it with. It's very similar to my 6S in many ways, only differs with no home button and almost all screen, and isn't by any means worth the down payment on a car. I'm gonna save the couple hundred bucks, get a phone that's like mine but much more powerful and hella storage, and zoom off to the future. Why did I say that.

So that's my, as some would say, maybe, "hot take" on the iPhone X and why it's underwhelming. It's as if someone took my 6S and made the screen bigger and took away the home button. Meh.

It's Late But I'm Still Posting

I've never realized, until very recently, how much money people probably spend on dating sites. I joined Tinder in mid-to-late June, and then followed that with OK Cupid a week or so ago, and then hit up Match.com and Zoosk. Between those four sites, you could easily spend at least $50/month or more just to have anything from unlimited likes to actually viewing messages from others or seeing who liked your profile. Tinder Plus is $10/month for unlimited likes and a new "Likes You" section, OK Cupid as "A-List Basic" and "A-List Premium" to see who likes you and when a message you've sent is read (among various other "perks"), Match has several tiers of subscriptions, and this site is near-useless as a free user. Unless you pay a minimum of $15/month for 3 months, you can do no more than view profiles and like them. No messaging, no viewing messages, no seeing who likes you, none of that. Zoosk has subscriptions to use "SmartPick" and view profiles of those who liked you.

The first girl I matched with on Tinder is done with. She stopped responding to my messages last month for whatever reason. I haven't matched with a single person since, across any dating site. I've gotten plenty of likes from others, but all of them on OK Cupid weren't my type/very attractive, and Match doesn't let me see them without payment... kinda the same with Zoosk. I kind of figured there would be a point at each one where certain features weren't free, but holy shit, the smallest things they hide. Wanna see who likes you? Give us $20 and we'll tell you! Wanna see this message? Subscribe for 6 months and you'll get it!

There is one girl I found on Match who's very pretty and a Packer fan (golden package right there), but she hasn't been on in 2 weeks, and I can't do anything but Like her as a free user, so it's nearly pointless. Even if I did have a subscription, who's to say she is a subscriber and won't see the message anyway?

That's all I got in the tank for this one. It's 1:34 AM, I'd like to be up by 9 and drag myself to the gym sometime tomorrow. G'night!

What Other Way to Say It

I've been trying to find some way to talk about this on here, but every time I do, I either say "Fuck it, this sounds like shit." or "I sound like a whiny little bitch.", so maybe this is whatever-times-the-charm on this one. I'm not sure if some of the stuff I'll be saying in this post has been mentioned/talked about before in previous posts since I've done so many drafts, but here it is.

The girl from Tinder, Anna, that I hung out with at Summerfest and saw Andy Grammer with (alongside my second oldest and youngest sisters), hasn't said a word to me since July 11th. She was helping get ready for the The Little Mermaid musical that The Hartford Players put on last month, and I guess was so busy she wasn't able to reply too much, which I was fine with... at the time. It's been almost 3 weeks since anything's been said back to me, and I'm so worried that she's either done with me and won't say anything or something else that I don't understand. I'm not mad at her, I'm just frustrated it's like this right now. I try so hard not to think about it at work and just anywhere else, but eventually my mind strays back to why she hasn't said anything for coming-into-a-month now. Everything was going well, like... everything. We hit it off on Tinder pretty well, moved it to texting almost flawlessly, and enjoyed (at least I thought) each other's company at Summerfest. She even texted me first the next day, which to me was a big plus. I'm not sure what to do. I have this somewhat extensive paragraph written up in the Notes app on my iPhone, wondering if I should send that sometime this week or continue praying to God she eventually responds, or both. It's basically me saying, "Hey, I know you've been busy with musical stuff lately, but you've been pretty quiet on here lately... I like you a lot, wanna take you out to a nice place... hope you feel the same." that sorta thing. I'm gonna see what my younger sister says about it and if she thinks that's a good idea after waiting this long, or what the hell I'm supposed to do.

The last thing I wanna do is assume we're not gonna happen, go back to Tinder, find a couple matches, and then like the next day find her responding to me again. I'm trying my hardest to hold out for her and focus on just her, but I'm almost beyond discouraged at this point. Who knows, though, I may just be over-thinking it like always and she'll say something tomorrow about being away for so long. I just get really saddened by it all because you'd think after 3 texts and no responses, she would've said something if she were still interested in me. That leads me to wonder why I should even send her that last message, because why should I think she'll actually respond to that when she hasn't said a word in three weeks? I mean, I don't know how else to get through to her. She's not responding to my texts, but... oh yeah. That's another thing.

She seems to have no problem posting on Instagram and liking stuff on Facebook, but she can't respond to me. The only thing that is still giving me a little hope is a post of hers on Instagram where she's showing off a mask she's making for another musical, and in the description she says something like "Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I'm in the middle of going from one musical to the next and it's been a bit nuts." So, maybe it's just the biggest effing time commitment I've ever heard of and she's not saying much to me? I don't know. I just feel so crappy inside from it and it makes it a lot harder to get through the day when I still don't hear from her. I'd just like to know something. Anything. Even if, God forbid, she was done with me, at least have the respect/decency to tell me, so I'm not sitting here wondering what's up and trying to stay on her radar like it's the only thing that matters right now.


Again, I just don't know. I really want to send that last message, but then again, I also want to wait it out just this weekend yet, but I'm so damn torn. The worst case scenario, really, at this point is that I send that message telling her how I feel, and she doesn't even respond to that. Then I'll know she clearly isn't into me or thinks it's okay to leave me in the dark for eternity.

BUT I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SHE'D TELL ME ABOUT TWO MORE REHEARSALS LEFT AND THEN JUST BAIL LIKE THAT? WHY? OR ADD ME ON FACEBOOK FIRST. I never took her as someone who'd be like this. Even at Summerfest, she seemed really cool and had an amazing personality. It never crossed my mind that "Oh jeez, she's not digging this very well." Sure, it took her a while to respond at first on Tinder, but hey, that I fully understood; you wanna make sure this guy isn't a creep or someone who's gonna demand they get a response right away. And I kept my distance until she got more comfortable.

Anyway, that's my rant for the night. Time for bed and another day at the office. I continue praying as always.

Please, Anna. Just tell me what's up. I like you, you're pretty, your red hair, all of it. Whole 9 yards. I'm holding out for you while I keep my head up.